[Essay] Yakatsaurirwa kuhofisi plankton. Handifemerwi nebasa rangu

Pandakatanga kunzwa izwi rekuti "hofisi plankton", chimwe chinhu mukati memoyo wangu chakagumbuka. Uye nei tichizvidaidza kuti tisina basa uye tichizvidza? Imhaka yekuti hapana kwatinoenda here? Mhururu dzemvura dzinobvongodza uye dzinobonderana, masaisai anorovera pamhenderekedzo, uye plankton iri pamusoro payo uye inoita photosynthesizes. Uye iyo isingakwanise kuita photosynthesizing inodya mamwe ayo akasvibira. Kana kuti isu takawana zita iri nenyaya yekuti isu tinoumba misa, asi kwete simba? Tinongoenda kwainotisvitsa.

Iva sezvazvingaite, iyo melancholy yakandibata zvachose - kunyangwe muchina mutsva wekofi muhofisi haundifadze. Ndinogara, ndakatarisa pascreen, uye pachivanze pane lunch chete.

Boss vangu vanodya ropa. Chero kuita kwangu kunoshungurudzwa mubud. Paiva, ndinorangarira, nguva apo ndaida kutaura mufungo wangu ndokupa fundo yakadzama yenhau yakamutswa, asi maruva iwayo akajeka mumwoyo mangu akasvava kare kare. Nhau dzeprojekiti dzanhasi dzinofamba nemisodzi ichiyemera kwandiri. Mweya wangu, enda unokumbira rusununguko; Pane chimwe chinhu kuti uve muzvinabhizimusi? Munyika iyoyo yebhizimisi chete, njodzi dzose uye moto wekushanda mazuva manomwe pavhiki zvinofanira kutorwa. Zvinoshamisa kuti vakomana ivavo vane nguva yekurara sei, uye kuti havaite grey nguva isati yakwana. Saka ndaizogara munzvimbo yangu inodziya uye ndofara, asi kwete - kuora mwoyo kunondipinza mubhodhoro.

Vanoti kunyange tsoko dzinototadza kugaya chikafu nemabasa anofinha. Ichi chingava chikonzero chaicho chokutambura kwangu here? Iwe haugone kudaidza mazuva angu mafaro: email, mafoni, zvikumbiro, nhaurirano. Obsessively anotambudzwa nokunzwa kuti akanga akabatikana zuva rose, uye zero kubereka. Uye zvino zvatova zvakaoma kuparadzanisa Muvhuro kubva Chipiri, Chipiri kubva China mundangariro. Kunzwa kuti handisi kurarama hupenyu hwangu kana kuti handisi kurarama zvachose. Ndinoda kubhururuka seshiri yemahara kuenda kuzvitsuwa zvekunze. Paizove nemari yebungalow ine maonero egungwa. Gara pasi peheti yebhari, sip mojitos uye tarisa kunyura kwezuva. Mushure mezvose, nokuda kweizvi isu tose tinoedza kuwana bhegi remari, handizvo? Uye chokwadi chokuti hupenyu hwakadaro huchadyiswa muvhiki, uye mumwedzi huchatungamirira mukuora uye kuparara kwezvakasara zvemweya, hazvinetse munhu. Izvo zvisingatakure zvinoreva pachazvo, hazvibati tambo dzemoyo, zvinofinha.

Mumwe wandaishanda naye akamboti kwandiri, "Iri ibasa chete." Tose takanzwa izvi kakawanda. Usatora kubudirira kwako nekukundikana pamwoyo. Ibasa chete, hupenyu huzere nezvimwe zvakakosha. Uye zvandinoda: "Kusati kwafa, hapana anodemba kuti vakapedza nguva shoma kubasa." Ndiko kuti, ndinofanira kuvhara mweya wangu uye kuva goko risina hanya kwemaawa makumi mana pavhiki. Ipapo kuzvishora kwangu kunobva kwanzwisisika. Ini ndinosiya zvishuvo zvangu nekuzvipira, ndinotsiva chokwadi nezvavanoda kunzwa kubva kwandiri, kunaka kwebasa rangu kunorasikirwa nerevo kwandiri. Asi ini ndakadzivirirwa nekusaziva kwangu uye chido chekufadza munhu wese.

Rega ndigovere chidimbu chenyaya yangu. Kudzivisa kunetsana hakuna kumbondiitira basa. Nemhaka yeizvi, ndaiwanzodzingwa nebhanhire, uye, zvichida, vakanga vakarurama. Ndiani anoda vanhu vanozunungusa chikepe seboka? Ndinofanira kudzidza kuteerera uye kutaura zvishoma. Ukuwo, ungada chiremba anobvumirana nomunhu wose muzvinhu zvose here? Kana kuti ungada mumwe munhu anoda kusvika pasi pechokwadi here? Apa ndakada kufanana. Handinzwisise kana chishuwo chekuita basa rako nemazvo chakadzikiswa zvakanyanya. Hazvibviri kurarama hupenyu usina kutsika pamunwe wemumwe munhu unorwadza - kunetsana hakudzivisiki. Uye, nekuda kwekushaya simba kwavo, mumwe munhu anobva kwaunogara achaedza kukubvisa mukutsiva kwekukanganisa kwakakonzerwa. Uye chii?

Nekudaro, iwe unogona zvakare kurarama pane plankton: kushambira, kuvhara maziso ako, nekuyerera, vhura muromo wako uchidya. Hupenyu hwakanaka, hwakachengeteka. Imwe unicellular, chero zvakadaro, nzira yenhoroondo haizoshanduki. Munhu anosarudza kutaura chokwadi haakwanisi kusvika mamiriyoni. Uye ngazvive zvakadaro. Asi ndinotambudzwa nokuziva kuti kana kuri madikanwa kusararama kuti urarame pane imwe nguva gare gare, zvino nei?

Basa harikurudzire kana usingaedze kuriita nemazvo.

Source: www.habr.com