[I-Essay] Inikezelwe ehhovisi plankton. Angikhuthazwa wumsebenzi wami

Lapho ngiqala ukuzwa igama elithi “plankton yasehhovisi,” okuthile okujulile kimi kwacasuka kakhulu. Futhi kungani sizibiza ngamagama anjalo adelelayo nadelelayo? Yingoba asihambi ndawo ngomkhumbi? Amanzi amaningi ayabila futhi ashayisane, amagagasi ashayeka ogwini, futhi i-plankton ilele phezulu futhi i-photosynthesize. Futhi leyo engakwazi ukwenza i-photosynthesis idla abafowabo abaluhlaza. Noma sizuze lesi sihloko ngokwakha inqwaba, kodwa hhayi amandla? Simane sintante lapho kusithatha khona.

Noma ngabe kunjalo, i-melancholy ingidle ngokuphelele - ngisho nomshini omusha wekhofi ehhovisi awungijabulisi. Ngihlezi, ngigqolozele isikrini, futhi kuyisidlo sasemini kuphela ngaphandle.

Umphathi wami udla igazi. Kumosha noma yiziphi izinhlelo zami. Kukhona, ngiyakhumbula, izikhathi lapho ngangifuna ukuveza imicabango yami futhi nginikeze isifundo esijulile ngendaba ephakanyiswayo, kodwa lezo zimbali ezikhanyayo enhliziyweni yami kade zabuna. Izingxoxo zanamuhla zamaphrojekthi zenzeke kimi ngezinyembezi zokuzamula. Umphefumulo wami, ngokusobala, ucela inkululeko. Ingabe kufanele ube usomabhizinisi? Kulowo mhlaba webhizinisi kuphela, zonke izingozi kanye nengcindezi yokusebenza izinsuku eziyisikhombisa ngesonto kufanele kuthathelwe wena. Kuyamangaza ukuthi labo bafana banesikhathi sokulala kanjani, nokuthi abajiki kanjani impunga ngaphambi kwesikhathi. Ngakho kufanele ngihlale endaweni yami efudumele futhi ngijabule, kodwa cha - ukucindezeleka kungiphoqa ebhodleleni.

Bathi ngisho nezinkawu zithola ukuqunjelwa wumsebenzi oyisicefe. Mhlawumbe lesi yisona sizathu sangempela sokuhlupheka kwami? Izinsuku zami azikwazi ukubizwa ngenjabulo: izincwadi ze-imeyili, izingcingo, izicelo, izingxoxo. Ngihlushwa umuzwa wokuthi bengimatasa usuku lonke futhi anginakho ukukhiqiza. Futhi manje kunzima ukuhlukanisa uMsombuluko kusukela ngoLwesibili, ngoLwesibili kusukela ngoLwesine. Umuzwa wokuthi angiphili impilo yami noma angiphili nhlobo. Ngifisa sengathi ngingandiza njengenyoni ekhululekile ngiye eziqhingini ezingavamile. Kungaba nemali ye-bungalow enokubukwa kolwandle. Ngingathanda ukuhlala ngaphansi kwesigqoko sebha, ngiphuze i-mojito futhi ngincome ukushona kwelanga. Phela, yingakho sonke silwela ukuthola isikhwama semali, akunjalo? Futhi iqiniso lokuthi ukuphila okunjalo kuyoba yisicefe ngesonto, futhi ngenyanga kuzoholela ekulimazeni nasekuhlakazweni kwezinsalela zomphefumulo, akukhathazi muntu. Okungenangqondo, akuthinti izintambo zenhliziyo, kuyabhora.

Uzakwethu wake wangitshela, “Kuwumsebenzi nje.” Sesikuzwile kaningi lokhu. Ungayithathi inhliziyo yakho impumelelo nokwehluleka kwakho. Kumane kuwumsebenzi, ukuphila kugcwele izinto ezibaluleke kakhulu. Futhi engikuthandayo: “Ngaphambi kokuba bafe, akekho ozisola ngokuthi bachithe isikhathi esincane kakhulu emsebenzini.” Okusho ukuthi, ngidinga ukuvala umphefumulo wami futhi ngibe igobolondo elingazweli amahora angu-40 ngesonto. Khona-ke ukuzizonda kwami ​​kuyacaca. Ngizilahla ngokuzithandela izifiso zami kanye nemibono yami, ngishintsha iqiniso ngalokho abafuna ukukuzwa kimi, izinga lomsebenzi wami lilahlekelwa yincazelo kimi. Kodwa ngivikelwe ukuntula umgogodla nesifiso sokujabulisa wonke umuntu.

Ngizokwabelana ngocezu lomlando womuntu siqu. Ukugwema ukungqubuzana akukaze kube kuhle kimi. Ngenxa yalokhu, ngangivame ukuxoshwa kabi, futhi mhlawumbe babeqinisile. Ubani ofuna abantu banyakazise isikebhe eqenjini? Kudingeka ngifunde ukulalela kakhudlwana futhi ngikhulume kancane. Ngakolunye uhlangothi, ungathanda yini udokotela ovumelana nawo wonke umuntu kukho konke? Noma ungakhetha othile ozibophezele ekufinyeleleni ekujuleni kweqiniso? Yilokho engikhuluma ngakho. Angiqondi ukuthi isifiso sokwenza kahle umsebenzi womuntu saba nini kangaka. Akunakwenzeka ukuphila ukuphila ngaphandle kokunyathela uzwane olubuhlungu lomuntu—izingxabano azinakugwenywa. Futhi, ngenxa yobuthakathaka babo, othile ovela embuthanweni wakho uzozama ukukususa ngokuziphindiselela ngokuphazamiseka okubangelwe. Yini futhi?

Kodwa-ke, ungaphila njenge-plankton: bhukuda uvale amehlo akho ngomsinga, vula umlomo wakho ngenkathi udla. Impilo enhle, enempumelelo. Iseli elilodwa, kunoma yikuphi, ngeke liguqule umlando. Umuntu oyedwa onquma ukukhuluma iqiniso ngeke afinyelele izigidi. Futhi makube njalo. Kodwa okungihlukumezayo ukuqaphela ukuthi uma kufanele ngingaphili ukuze ngiphile ngolunye usuku kamuva, kungani-ke ngizihlupha?

Umsebenzi awukukhuthazi uma ungazami ukuwenza kahle.

Source: www.habr.com