Moderator comment. This article was in the Sandbox and was rejected for pre-moderation. But today an important and difficult question has been raised in . And this post reveals the signs of personality decay and may be useful to those who, as the author of the mentioned article put it, are a meter from the waterfall. Therefore, it was decided to release it.
Hello, dear readers!
I am writing to you in a state of deep binge (more than 3 months), from which I can not get out. Doses - about 1 - 1,5 liters per day. strong alcohol and one or two bottles of dry wine. I was in a psychiatric clinic about a month a year ago - I could not bear the breakup of the family, I broke down. They did the so-called. "encoding" by injection. After entering the medicine, alcohol cannot be smelled - it is not processed. A distinctive feature, sorry - the smell of urine. Sharp as vinegar. Disgusting.
That's why I'm writing - I'm not asking for help and not condolences. I want to tell you what an altered consciousness is. I read a couple of articles on this topic, incl. and on Habré, in my opinion, it was somewhere, but it is probably individual.
So, point by point:
- Loss of own "I". You become some kind of common man, a member of society, with philosophical ideas, but you won’t even lift a finger to actually do something.
- Pathological desire for comfort. You need to be warm all the time, you look very carefully so as not to stain your body at least a little, and, if possible, your clothes.
- Loss of some senses of perception and exacerbation of others. In my example, the sense of smell abruptly (almost completely) disappears, vision deteriorates greatly, but hearing improves very sharply - and I didn’t hear very well before. Now, in such an altered state, you hear, and clearly, to the point of words, conversations on the playground in the yard 200 meters from the house.
- Cunning - well, this, as I know, is the problem of all alcoholics. But at this stage, it reaches such a degree that ... how to explain ... a person who does not know you (without smelling a terrible smell from you) will not be able to distinguish you from a sober one. Feeling the slightest danger, you immediately turn into a very cunning type. Your tongue is not slurred, your gait is even, you can maintain a reasonable conversation on banal topics. But! An interesting moment - any stupid, but non-standard question leads you to a long stupor. It is immediately obvious that something is wrong with you ...
- The main state - "drank - lay down." At the same time, you really hope that no one who is uncomfortable with you will call. But there are also moments of hyperactivity - you can imagine how you will play football in the yard, run or box.
- Without any problems, you do typical template actions, but any simple non-standard task puts you in a dead end, before which you weakly retreat.
- Very frequent, almost every couple of hours - a terrible tachycardia.
- There is no gag reflex. You can drink cognac with kefir, eat a couple of cucumbers - nothing ...
- Without a drink - any, even dry wine - it is impossible to drink strong alcohol.
- Insomnia. The concept of "sleep" in its usual sense does not exist at all. There are some outages for an hour and a half (this is still not bad), more often for 30-40 minutes. What during the day, what at night. If you managed to take a nap for four hours - how you were born again. For two minutes. Since the first thing he did was immediately drank. There is no will power to break this chain.
Why am I writing? Maybe it will still be useful for medicine. Although, as far as I know, the third stage, associated with the disintegration of the personality, is irreversible.
If the topic is interesting, I will write more.
Source: habr.com
